Firstly, apologies! I’ve been neglecting this part of my life, in fact my life consists of mostly medicine and work and trying to get done the copious amounts of study between with the occasional crash and burn, need to lie in bed all day, if I even have a day?! Lol, worst excuse ever.
So my last post was just after finding out I passed exams… that rollercoaster is not one I’m looking forward to in 6 months. The anxiety is here thinking about it! Moving right along.
I had 5 weeks off following exams which I moved to the other side of the state in, the rest of the time I think I sat at my parents place trying to convince myself that leaving the house would probably be a good idea. Netflix and their fireplace became my best friend! I was exhausted and done. I had no energy. I think the last week of holidays some life came back into me and I rode my bike to get organic doughnuts (nothing like a sweet incentive to do that 15km!). I did an orientation at the job I was in for 5 years prior to medicine (a waste of their money, but hey, I enjoyed the income after not earning anything for over 12 months!). Then I moved into my new place and flew back down to the main campus for a week orientation before flying home to start the next day.
How this year, i.e. Phase 3, works:
Monday and Tuesday = GP placement where I see my own patients and pretty much get to act as a doctor.
Wednesday = Teaching day with case based learning, tutorials, lectures and clinical skills
Thursday and Friday = specialty rotations. I started in general medicine in a tiny hospital, then now finishing up emergency in the same hospital this week. Next week I start a geriatrics rotation followed by mental health to finish the year off. Next year I have paediatrics, O&G, anaesthetics/ ICU then renal.
I must say the teaching has been pretty incredible. On ED I have stitched, plastered, reduced fractures, put in nerve blocks, pretty much anything that I can safely do supervised. Loving it! I’m sad to finish up actually.
The other aspect of phase 3 is the research project. I’m currently waiting for my ethics approval so I can start collecting data. In the meantime I’m trying to write my literature review. Can’t say I’m loving this research process. I think really, we just aren’t given much i.e. Any, time to do it. I’ll be glad when ethics is through and lit review is submitted! Lol..
My life outside of med consists of working most Sat/ sundays. It’s hectic and I don’t think I can maintain it but the money is a little too nice to give up at this point. I enjoy the work most of the time and takes my mind off the stresses of my life and uni. I’m definitely not in the low place that I was for most of the last 18months. I’ve had moments but that’s all they are really and not so scary. I still struggle to put words to how I was feeling for all of phase 2. It was a pretty dark place and not one that I’d like to head back to.
I’ll have to write a piece on mental health in medicine soon. It’s very topical and well quite close to my heart. I get what it is like and what it is like to ignore for a long time. It took breaking down after exams for me to realize the pent up emotions I was carrying around with me day in and day out. It’s not healthy but I also didn’t know how to reach out for help and was too proud to do so. I am pleased to say I have an awesome GP where I am now who makes a point of asking me how my mental health is. I think that’s important. I’m not good at reaching out so appreciate when people draw me out and encourage me to speak up.
There have been many lessons I’ve learnt over the years. I often reflect on who I was at the begining of my med degree and where I am now and I am amazed. I was doing just that today. I was thinking about how I was in our small case based learning groups (also known as PBLs) back in first year and then now. Then I was shy, timid and hated them with a passion! I dreaded them every single week. I didn’t feel smart enough, good enough, what if I made a fool of myself? Now, I don’t dread them. I have grown to appreciate them. I feel like I have things to share with the group and I’m happy to talk up.
That’s a win there!
Oh! I almost forgot my awesome news. That’s if you made it this far!! I’m going to Austria next year for elective!!!!!!! It’s in paediatrics and adolescent surgery 🙂 I’m so happy! Exactly what I wanted. And Europe baby!! Yay!
On that note, until next time!